Friday, December 16, 2011

Emotions


Emotions

There is a way in life
Where anger overtakes the soul and pitiful hints of the mind try to piece together
Something that will never form.
It is afraid and I am afraid
I cannot say and it cannot say.
Why oh why do these trytiptical words not make sense
Because they are not words
They are not words
But things that don’t make sense are nothing but the lucid horror of things that cannot be helped
The human bean is but full of these and cannot live without it
But to become monsters of the dark gloomy mists
The darkest shades of night
There loom something, someone, its lingering taunts
If these tyrannical rules do not break, there is fear, and fear can be felt
Not heard or touched
Not seen or spoken,
But felt like the smooth rough surface of felt.
It is fortunate for most but unfortunate for a few fiends or friends,
Soon the thoughts may consume, but
Not yet

Not yet


Not yet.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Ladybug Discoveries




Once upon a time, there was a girl. She loved to sit among the long strands of grass and wonder at the pretty words said to her in books. She found that those words were what made her understand and understanding was what made her intelligence grow. She was a thoughtful little girl and one day a mystery occurred; a bug the size of a teensy little button landed on her thumb. It was a lady bug with bright red and black spots all over its shell. She stared at it and it stared at her and spoke a word.
Buzzzz.
She didn’t understand this word so she tried saying it to herself.
“Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz.”
She tried it in different pitches, different accents (of the few that she knew), different lengths of time, and accented different syllables. By then the lady bug had flown away. She looked at her thumb where the lady bug had been marching about and found microscopic footprints. She ran around looking for a magnifying glass to grab and used it and a camera to take a picture. The picture couldn’t see what she saw though. It missed the most important details of her discovery.
She thought long and hard about the cute little footprints and came to a decision. She decided to use her intelligence to investigate the mystery of the word by following the tracks and clues.
Shout, shout, shout, said her mother. She looked up from her right hand startled and realised that her mother was forming words.
“- are you doing? Would you please come in Jelly! I need your opinion on some cupcakes for your birthday!”
So she ran through the towering grass of her backyard and found herself in a much neater household as her mother licked her own fingers. She gestured for Jelly to try a cupcake so she did. She asked for a knife and her mother handed her one. She carefully cut the cupcake into four not quite equal quarters and looked at the pink swirls that were captured within the fresh white yellow cake of the cupcake. She delighted in the feel of how fluffy it was inside her mouth. She chewed slowly with a frown on her face making sure her mother recognised that this was a serious matter and not just her wanting to eat a cupcake. Each quarter tasted the same but also quite different. She then gave her verdict.
“Raspberries.”
She nodded her head and her mother smiled.
“Of course darling, but what colour frosting would you like?”
Jelly liked surprising people so she decided that the cupcakes frosting must be...
“Blue.”
She smiled righteously, very sure of her choice and proud to have made such an important decision. She would have liked to help out more but she also liked to be surprised and she knew her mother knew so she told her she would be back later and walked happily out the door and back into the jungle that is their backyard. She grabbed the magnifying glass and the camera again and walked into the adventure awaiting her.
As she slowly tiptoed through the grass, she suddenly felt her foot catch and ended up with her face squished into her magnifying glass which lay stuck between her right cheek and the green of the grass. She stopped moving suddenly and looked excitedly through the glass and quickly clicked the camera. She lifted the magnifying glass slightly with her eye still very close to it showing a magnified curiosity in one of her brown eyes. It was those footprints again! But this time, not on her finger. She was genuinely disappointed in the camera and how it couldn’t see what she saw. Here was evidence and she couldn’t even record it! Frustrated she threw it away (not very far mind you) but then realised her mother might not be happy about that so she quickly picked it up again and tried to clean it as best she could so that any permanent damage couldn’t be easily seen. She put it near the house carefully leaving a trail so she could find the footprints for a second time. She grabbed a pencil and notepad and decided she could draw it even though she knew it wasn’t proper evidence but it was still something more accurate than the stupid camera.
She looked for the magnifying glass and to her horror found it missing. The footsteps were still there though, this time, much bigger. They looked very peculiar. It hardly represented human footprints at all. But then again she guessed it couldn’t represent a human footprint as it was actually a ladybug’s footprint. She started sketching a line which turned into grass and then started on the footprint (or should she say ladybug-print?).
Thoughts that hadn’t occurred to her were: why had the footprints gotten bigger? And why was the grass much bigger than her?
As she sketched she heard a slow dragging sound that sounded like the friction of something heavy being dragged across paper. She didn’t want to get too freaked out so she ignored it until she was satisfied with her finished sketch. By then the noise had gotten fainter and she had to listen really hard if she wanted to find out what was happening. So she stood very still and located it as coming from the direction in front of her. She skipped half a step as she almost collided with a leg. Well it didn’t look like a leg but she turned her head upwards and found herself eye to eye with a pray mantis.
“How did you get taller than me?”
It looked at her and didn’t seem very interested so Jelly decided to walk on careful not to run into anything else.
The noise got closer and closer as she skipped merrily toward it. She was excited. She had never encountered such a crazy happening. She noticed that the footprints seemed to be headed in the same direction as the sound and she jumped up excitedly. The wind had picked up as if it urged her onwards. She rounded one more piece of grass and found to her astonishment, her magnifying glass.
It was just where she had left it. In fact she had ended up back where she had started. She stomped her foot in annoyance and frustration and then realised her mistake too late. A ladybug had been underfoot and squished to death. She gasped in horror. Tears fell down her cheeks. The footprints she saw before led to where the ladybug lay squashed. She knelt down beside the still red and black spotted 2D bug. It choked out one last word just gasping for life. One last word.
Its last meaningful thought before it succumbed gratefully to the unknown.
Buzz?
It didn’t sound like a statement but rather a question. It was a question that Jelly was quite well acquainted with already and had asked her mother many times before (to the annoyance of her mother).
“Good question Mr Ladybug. Good question.”
She said sadly as she tried to stop more tears falling. It was her birthday. But she had no right to do wrong just because it was her birthday. Just because it was the day she came to life did not mean she could end a life. Balance didn’t work that way. It shouldn’t! She felt like a murderer. It was terrible. Why did she have to get annoyed! Why oh why oh WHY?!?!
Her mother came out wondering what was going on and found Jelly curled in a ball with her eyes shut tight. She put her hand on her daughter’s shoulder and asked what was wrong.
“I-I ...I ...got a-angry and st-st-st-stomped and murdered a p-p-poor innocent life.”
Her mother looked around and couldn’t find anything wrong. Then she saw it; the small red and black squashed bug. She silently laughed to herself and hugged Jelly tight.
“Shhh Jelly. Don’t cry. It’s alright. Sometimes things happen that we can’t help and we shouldn’t dwell on it or else we’ll end up making our future our past. Ok? Jelly?”
“Ok.”
Jelly looked up and had stopped crying. What was wrong with this place? She thought. If dying leads to a better place why would you stay here? She let herself be lead into the house making sure she didn’t forget her notebook, pencil, and magnifying glass.
“Now why don’t you get ready for your birthday party? That pretty dress is waiting for a beautiful princess to wear it. So you should tell her to get lost and wear it yourself.”
“Mum!!!”
“Just joking darling. You are the beautiful princess of course. Now be happy and enjoy your birthday!”
Jelly, still not completely cheered, tried to be encouraged by her mother’s words but couldn’t find it within her. She automatically put on her new dress without emotion and decided to look through her notebook at the footprints she had. She looked through each drawing trying to understand what the word buzz meant thinking it might unlock some hidden message that could distract her from her now murderer status. On the last page she found a page full of proper footprints all lined up in a way that looked like words.
Buzz Buzz, Buzz Buzz. Buzz Buzz Buzz Buzz. Buzz.
She said it over and over again and thought, because it was usually what happened, that it would make less and less sense as she repeated it. But the opposite happened. Her mouth opened in an o shape and then transformed into a small smiled.
It was an accident!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

We Get On


I turned around and there he was. His short blonde curls rustled as usual. His usual tense posture relaxed. His fingers entangled in some girl’s brown hair. Her long straight hair tumbled down her slender back only imperfect where it was touched by his fingers. Her small frame was balanced out with curves that I wished I had.
Their lips were locked.
My vision started blurring. I had to get out but I couldn’t seem to move. I simply stared like you would stare at the oncoming wave of a tsunami. If you’re that kind of frustrating person who likes to watch devastating and scary things. I am.
It was both confusing and enlightening in a strange and scary way. It was this guy who I thought I knew. I thought he was mine and no one else’s. I thought that the time we found a seashell and bought nachos by the beach meant something. I thought that our accidental clichéd hand touch was something. I thought my clumsiness that only ever happened in his presence meant something.
I guess I was wrong.
I blinked and as I did I slowly walked backwards not careful not to bump into anyone else.
“Woopsy daisies. Sorry didn’t see you there.”
“I was the one walking backwards and consequently not thinking of how I might unwittingly crash or trip over something or someone.”
“Seriously though. I was walking forwards with my eyes closed.”
“Oh”
“Oh.”
I looked at him. He was holding a drink in one hand and looked a little unbalanced and a little red in the face. He grabbed my hand suddenly to steady himself. I jumped at the same time and we both ended up on the floor, him laughing.
“We’re not very good at this are we?”
I looked at him again and smiled.
His brown fringe was covering his forehead and he was looking very awkward but quite gorgeous at the same time even though his legs tangled in mine. His hand was still holding mine even though it was of no use to him anymore. I jerked my hand away suddenly afraid and found, to my embarrassment, tears were sliding down my cheeks. He, a little confused, reached out to wipe them away but I quickly got up and walked away.
I found my friends in a huge group just talking and dancing. It was all so...normal. I thought they’d be sitting talking amongst themselves or attached to some other guy or something. But as Shea saw my face she quickly broke away from the rest of the group and grabbed my hand. I frowned. It was all so overwhelming in my state of mind. I knew that time would keep going on as normal without me but the part of my brain that comprehended emotions just didn’t think it could be possible.
She asked what was wrong and I told her what I saw but not what happened afterwards. She handed me a drink and I gratefully finished it in one gulp. It numbed my throbbing irrational emotions as she handed me another and let go of my hand. She gestured for me to join the group but I just felt like sitting down.
As my emotions started to become less and less noticeable I walked around the house. Just wandered like a ghost thinking I might just rewind what happened and start again. Though the night wore on, I pretended it was just beginning and began skipping. I accidentally ran into that guy again but didn’t take any notice this time. He asked what I was doing and I just skipped right past him. Then someone else grabbed my hand again and I twirled as if dancing with the faeries that never stopped. As I collapsed onto my back very dizzy a different face looked down at me.
His brown fringe pointed at my eyes. I pointed back with my right index finger. He laughed and my body started shaking in response. I saw myself giggle as he helped me up and he pretended to wipe the tears that weren’t there anymore.
“Now, let’s start again. I’m Sebastian.”
I didn’t say anything in response because names meant something. Names meant learning something about a person’s whole identity. And that meant everything. Not like that other guy. He stared at me expectantly so I said,
“Hi”
He shook his head and laughed. A trait I was beginning to associate him with (laughing that is, not shaking his head). He pulled me along through the halls and rooms passing all the other people who glanced over at us but didn’t stare as if their whole world was collapsing. I guess that may be an inner thing rather than a visible thing. I wondered at what was happening. I had had enough drinks to know I didn’t care but I was curious nonetheless. He found an empty room and pulled me in.
He finally let go and I jumped onto the bed. It was squishy and comfortable and I felt so content lying there. He moved towards me and I looked up at him. I decided to distract him from looking at me in a way that made my nerves start to tingle excitedly.
“What a lovely colour arrangement and the flowerpot is oh so adorable. Oh look what a pretty dresser and cupboard. I have that sticker on my bed too! I love those stickers. They’re so fun – ”
He covered my mouth playfully so that I would shut up and I started giggling in that ridiculous way that most girls do. That I do, apparently. Why does this make me feel so normal; like everyone else? But before I could ponder further he kissed me. It was sloppy and not at all romantic but it was cute and those feelings I had before, well they encouraged me not to ruin the moment.
                                                                                             ***

I woke up trying to fall asleep again but gave up. My eyes felt heavy with mascara left on from the night before. The dress I wore last night was also still on and I didn’t recognise the room I was in. I blearily looked around and found my hand holding a boy’s hand; if I remember correctly, Sebastian. As I became much more aware of my surroundings suddenly I saw that sticker and the flowerpot. Sebastian was still asleep and completely dressed beside me. That reassured me a little but not too much. I got up and tried to open the door and then realised it opened the other way. Shaking my head I tried to remember what had happened. To my relief I remembered a fair bit and worried much less. The sight of my very best guy friend kissing that brunette hit me like a blow to the head but otherwise nothing too regretful happened. I must have decided that I needed sleep more than I needed a boy to comfort me.
A thought entered my mind again. Why was I so normal?
Another one entered my head. Whose house is this? And then I remembered it was my friend Shea’s and I stopped worrying. I was supposed to sleep over. But was Sebastian? Well I guess he didn’t take up much room as he and I had shared.
“Cleoooo!”
She was much more awake than I thought anyone could be at this hour.
“Oh hey Shea.”
“What you want for brekky? I think I might have nothing but feel free to have some cereal or toast. So tell me what happened really? After you left me and the rest of the gang!”
I pressed my hands to my head. I could feel a headache starting to thump inside one part of my brain.
“OH! Right do you want some painkillers or something?”
She ran to the kitchen leaving me to follow behind, so I did, grateful not to relive some of the details of my night. She started babbling about her night while I gulped the pills down and waited for it to take effect. I thought I had better tell her about the boy in the room but not quite yet. She told me of all the going-ons that happened that she knew of and who hooked up with who and how she managed to keep everyone out of bedrooms (all except me). She mentioned my unrequited crush and how she saw them too and threw them out just because she could, as well as for me. That made me smile. She was my best friend after all. Then something happened.
Sebastian had woken up and walked into the kitchen. I looked on horrified inside but indifferent on the outside while Shea jumped up and grabbed something to defend herself and me.
“Woah there! It’s me, Sebastian. Your friend knows me. I came with a friend of yours; that guy making out with that little brunette girl.”
Shea looked at me suspiciously suspecting I must know something that she hadn’t told her. I had to speak now or forever hold my peace.
So I whispered a whole quick account of my night and she gasped and looked at me with a smile that said you cheeky devil you. All the while Sebastian stood in the doorway amused at my not revealing my night with him to her until now.
“He’s quite good-looking isn’t he?”  She whispered.
I rolled my eyes. Of course she would think of that first. Then she offered breakfast for him.
“Hey you, want some food?”
“Nah it’s cool. I should probably go hey? Don’t want to intrude on your hospitality any further than I already have. Might see you around...?”
“You don’t know her name and you slept with her???”
“We didn’t sleep together.” I sighed. Of course I forgot to say that and of course she would assume.
I got up to walk him to the door and Shea did too but I glared at her and she sat back down again knowingly and winked. Honestly! She winked.
He smiled at me and we walked to the front door not saying anything till we got there.
“Nice day isn’t it? Lovely weather for a stroll or a swim or something of that doing. Shea’s great. I mean she didn’t care you stayed over or anything and I was a little worried you know how this – ”
He covered my mouth with his hand again. I smiled shaking my head.
“You like avoiding topics of interest don’t you?”
“Are you and me interesting? You see I was under the impression that I was a little drunk and you were a little drunk and a boy and there’s not much else to say really. Completely and utterly uninterestingly uninteresting.”
He smiled back at me. It was making me nervous and tingly again. He tilted his head and because I didn’t want to say anything because I had begun to ramble, a nervous habit of mine, I kissed him.
“Stay here.”
He dazedly obeyed as I went back into the house and wrote something down on a piece of paper. I folded it, tightly held it in the palm of my hand and then raced back and slipped it into his pocket while kissing him on the cheek.
“See you.”
I closed the door and ran back inside to tell Shea everything.
As Sebastian walked away he opened the piece of paper and read the scrawl of letters and numbers.
Cleo - 0405904228

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Unnecessary Things

To let the fickle claim home
is to let the play become real life.
The jostle of wings
and the smartest of feathers
Are not incurred into the famous hat for a penny
but are rightfully placed within the skin that it is so plucked from
Flocks of purple and yellow and blue
and green and pink and white
Leaving naked birds and flowering
hats full of rainbows that aren’t created by rain.
Unnecessary yearnings for things that don’t
Aren’t ever
Shan’t never
Ruin the bad and hearten the worse.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Equations


The world had got itself destroyed, so Sally had to find a way to create it again.
Sally was an extraordinary person. She had the ability to figure out the physics and calculations to adjust her own body weight to equal less than the weight of air. She invented the equation for flying.
She had this dream; A dream that she would fly all around the world; not unlike many other peoples’ dreams. But the difference between her and everyone else was that she had the ability to make her equations, however ridiculous they were, come to life and create...ANYTHING. Anything that she could figure out that is. This is how and why she obtained the ability to fly.
Before she could actually fly around the world she first had to get used to the feeling of flying; changing direction, accelerating forwards, backwards, and all the tricks and twirls. She also had to allow herself time to work out the equation of breathing oxygen when there wasn’t any around in case she flew too high. But by that time, the world had already been destroyed.
Her very first equation was a key. To what she didn’t know, but it was quite a feat to her and her maths teacher. They had stood staring at the black symbols that represented the key to something for about an hour before they decided that it was just a key. She was about eight when this event occurred.
Though it seemed like she was a genius, the only reason she was able to figure out the true calculations of various objects was because of the little coincidences that made up an entire day. These small events, contributing to the make-up of one whole day, 23 hours 56 minutes and 42 seconds (rounded to 24 hours) can only be summed up by one word that is defined as a possibility or probability of anything happening; chance. In the event of her conception the moment the eruption exploded within, a number was fired off another genius’s telepathic tendency into a single sperm which inevitably, being smarter than the rest, made its way up to its other half to start the beginnings of life.
Forty-two.
She had one equation that continued to make her smile no matter what day it was.

C = p + c - m / ci (w2 + s + i) 
This was how she captured a moment in her life. It was also almost the equation for chocolate (take the ‘i’ out of the equation).
These equations, to normal physicists, may not make any sense whatsoever but she saw each and every symbol as a piece of a puzzle that, when put together, become a whole.
So.
Onto the destruction of the planet.
It had been minding its own business till it had come in contact with a curious sight; one of glory and downfall and, with the interests of love in mind, turmoil. It had become obsessed with this curious sight by an elaborate amount and had forgotten to stay in one place. It incidentally moved one inch from its original location which had inevitably caused a ripple throughout the universe. The ripple grew bigger and bigger until it had bounced back with the full consequences. It bounced back and headed to the movement that had started the smallest of ripples in the first place which then proceeded to blow up the Earth inversely so that there was nothing left except the space it had occupied.
Sally was, at that moment in time, practicing her ability to fly and also testing out the multiplying oxygen equation which, luckily for her, worked just as the Earth disappeared right before her eyes, or rather, one-hundred metres under her feet. Her only response was
“Oh dear.”
There was a deer floating around space about to choke to death. She couldn’t possibly let it die so she used her equation on the deer and it survived. The only thing she didn’t plan was what to do next. The deer would just continue to float in space so was there much point in saving its life? She then argued that of course there was a point because every life is sacred and everything happens for a reason. This was one of her few beliefs that she wasn’t entirely certain of.
And that then lead her to her now predicament.
What was she going to do next now that the world had been destroyed? 
“There are many things....”
She started off but wasn’t sure how to finish. She was trying to work out something philosophical but she had many other going-ons in her mind that stopped her from thinking too far ahead with any one idea. So she decided to look around.
Geniuses, no matter how smart they are, are NOT very good at being instinctual. It usually took her a very long time to do anything (although if any other person tried to work out the things that she worked out, they would ultimately waste half of their lives, while she only used up one minute or so depending on the complexity of the problem).
As she looked around at the black appearance of the place that was called space, she thought about the word space, what it was and the whole embodiment of the word. Then, out of nowhere, she saw a white dot floating aimlessly (not the deer). It appeared to be heading slowly her way. She thought of the likelihood of it being another human being like herself but worked out mathematically that the likelihood of another human being to have not been sucked inwards towards the absence of something (nothing) was very low. But as the figure drew closer she found it taking the features of legs, body, arms, head, face and a towel. An odd assortment, Sally thought, but a fun one to put together again in her head.
The astronaut reached out his arm to grab hold of her. She jerked away unsuccessfully. This resulted in a huge hand grasping tightly to her frail arm. Sally’s eyes focused intensely (stared) for a long time on the ridiculous suit the astronaut was wearing. He looked like he was yawning.
He was.
“Hello, hello, hello my dear. How did you find your way out here in the depths of the unknown?”
She wasn’t sure what she should say so she replied with,
“I was learning to fly and the Earth collided with its own consequences and collapsed inwards leaving more unoccupied...space in...well...space.”
“Sounds like jolly good fun. My name is Baedon Sherwen and you are?”
“Sally. Sally Garnish.”
By that time she felt this weird tingling in her arm which usually happened when not enough blood is being pumped around the body at the average speed of five feet per second or three metres per hour.
“Can you let go of me or at least loosen your grip?”
“Why I would of course but I seem to have gained a cramp in my fingers and they are hurting like hellfire being burned in more hellfire. They also won’t move.”
Sally started moving her arms sporadically in crazy movements to loosen the astronaut’s grip. Because it was the last thing he thought would happen he started doing the same in the hopes that she might stop. He really didn’t want to hold on so tight but his hand seemed to have lost all feeling in the absence of the pain.
Finally after what seemed like minutes, she stopped. The grip had loosened, but not by enough for her arm to completely be at its full strength. She turned to the astronaut with her eyebrows angled inwards in a frown; she didn’t like this stranger that had survived. His arms, or rather, his arm was still flailing about for some unknown reason. It was a sight. After a few more minutes the astronaut stopped moving. Her mind was thinking of other more immediate matters such as a plan to get this stranger off of her thus she didn’t notice this improvement.
Baedon looked around space as if luxuriating in the features of a beautiful garden. His eyes looked right, left, up, down, then he turned about 1 degree to the right and repeated this cycle also changing the placement of Sally’s body by about half a metre in the same direction he had decided to turn. Although, because they were in outer space, these measurements were only applicable if they hadn’t kept floating away from their original position.
As Sally finally decided that, stopping the oxygen from entering the containment that predominantly occupied the area that was the main source of him being alive (his mouth and nose) was an unnecessary idea, she observed the astronaut’s awe of the universe that would potentially kill him unless she decided otherwise. She would of course save him, she concluded, because all life is sacred and everything happens for a reason.
C = p + c - m / ci (w2 + s + i)
She captured this moment. With all its flaws, it had interestingly pleasing positives.
She looked around again. One of her hands reached out for something. Something was puzzling her.
The absence of the Earth was more spectacular and devastating than she realised. Her hand was stretched out as if longing for something or someone.
She shook her head trying to jumble her thoughts and come up with one random one at the end like the lottery. This is what came out.
The rules of space differ from the rules of Earth. For her to figure out how to restore the Earth to its original existence, she had to learn these rules.
There was a whole new world of possibilities or probabilities of anything happening and she was the only one who was around to understand it all.
She smiled.

Monday, May 16, 2011

The Release

The air that blooms
prettily through the clouds
with incessant wilderness
of that which quits
upon.
Upon the sound
my heart flies as the little flying fish.
Upon my heart
lays the unspoken feelings
that the day
brings to my bosom,
the key to unlock the vault
that holds what's trapped
and unleashes the sorrow.
Feelings deemed unworthy of surfacing
making ruins of an innocent face
with glistening swells of raging stormy seas
tinge the calm
and make a whole.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Life in Play


Since the lights dimmed, the curtain closed, the melody faded...
Sitting in amongst the chairs that swarm upon the masses.
That don’t exist within the frame of time
That includes the lights dimmed, the curtain closed, the music gone...
The words formed not on the minds of everyone and no-one,
And nobody, and everybody,
The sunlight turned off like a flickering light
The moon turned on to the glorious new expectations and perceptions
The night lays waste to the wicked and naive.
The drinkers, the smokers, the predators,
The victims, the lonely, the prey
The ladies of the night and the running away
It stirs the crowd, the ongoing watchers,
It creates a story for the bored to be entertained
A tragic, sad, soothing, comforting tale,
Of a mouse, rat, gourmet piece of cheese that is stale
Feet being stepped on, backs being stabbed, heroes that daren’t be real
The whole captivating luxuries of nothing that is worth something
To nobody, somebody, anybody,
Tight lipped and frown face.
The moon flickers out without grace
The day streams warmth in ribbons blowing in the wind travelling to places with no shadow.
The curtain opens, to the day, letting the brightness fill everyone
Then there’s just me in amongst a swarm of chairs that crowd the masses that thereof are none.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Once Upon a Time



There was once the most eloquent toad that ever did live. This toad, however, was ugly and poisonous. His words only marred the effect his face had when he was speaking. There were many times he accidentally poisoned someone. There was the unfortunate incident where he was speaking to a dragonfly just wondering what it was like to hover around instead of hop and he accidentally spat some of his poisonous saliva in the dragonflies face.
Many were mesmerised and scared of him. He gained the nickname, Poisoned Eloquence. He actually didn't get that nickname though he likes to think that that was what they called him even though he knew they weren't as eloquent in words. His real name was...
"Bob! What's happening mate?"
Yes, his name was Bob; a fun short ineloquent name.
"I have been narrating my short life for the audience I hope to engage and entertain."
"Uhhhhh yeh whatever mate. Want to play lily pads?"
This other voice was another toad who was maybe the only toad that liked him for him. Even his parents found him a little bit too smart for them and often wondered how their son could be such a "smarty pants", as they say.
Bob (Poisoned Eloquence) sighed.
"I accept your request."
"Meaning?..."
"Yes Frederick, I'll play lily pads."

Lily pads is a game where you jump from lily pad to lily pad. It is basically like "tigi" or "tag" but on lily pads and you can't fall in the water or you are ‘it’. It does not need any special qualities nor does it require any intellect. It is a simple game that relies on hopping. It is actually quite a fun game but one with an intellect should be above such things.

Bob hopped after Fred and found himself heading towards a place no toad, no matter how smart they were, should find themselves in. Bob frowned and cautiously followed after Fred.

"Why do you keep calling me Frederick? My name's Fred. No -erick afterwards!"
"It is my nickname for you."
"Nickname? Like how you want to be nicknamed Poisoned Eloquence?"
"Very much so. I was wondering why we are heading to a place we have been directly told not to go. I do not wish to die."
"Don't be such a scaredy cat Bob. There's a pond right by the long flat black line. It's awesome!"

Bob, being one to never let himself ever be called a coward decided not to worry too much because how bad can it be if you're in a pond?

"Ok Frederick. I will take you up on your challenge."
"What challenge?"

Bob rolled his eyes as he realised Fred had forgotten what they were talking about. He felt like speaking so he decided to tell Frederick a story on the way to the pond next to the place they were never to go.

"Fred I'm going to tell you a story. Once upon a time, there was a frog and he was quite an ordinary frog."

Fred's eyes glazed over as he listened and both were unaware of how far they were hopping. Bob did not realise the effect his words had and both hopped automatically to the place they were never supposed to go.

“His fierce glare was a pathetic attempt at anything quite remotely emotional. The numbers that he found within ponds counted to only one less than there was and his mind would often find itself on the topic of concrete. The contrast between him (squishy) and concrete (hard or very hard [whichever you prefer]) always fascinated him to the ends of earth. His life was an average length and he conserved most of his risk taking to video games (he found one in the round cylinder that had fallen on its side that incidentally still worked).
One day something extraordinary happened; he found a pond. But it was on the other side of a long flat thing that no animal was ever supposed to cross.
The long flat thing had very fast things (?) going along from one side to the other and then past the line with lots of gaps in it the things go in the opposite direction very very fast.
This frog decided on a decision; the decision that he would do it. Do something extraordinary and amazing so that he had something in his life that was more than ordinary before he died. So he did it. He hopped.
One hop.
Two hops.
Three hops.
So far so good, he thought.
Four hops.
Fi-.”

Friday, April 15, 2011

Discoveries

BANG! The sound of gunfire echoed throughout the neighbourhood. The silence that followed was just as scary. No-one could be found lingering on the streets because when the gangs were out, the neighbours were in. Karen found that this was the best time to explore the streets. No prying eyes to wonder at the strangeness of her behaviour or curious mouths to disrupt her searchings. She could walk, creep, crawl, amble, or meander around being herself which was just as well because being yourself happened to be a hard thing to come by in this neighbourhood. The unspoken rules weighed down minds full of wondrous imagination.

Looking around quickly Karen decided to tiptoe out of her back door and through the back streets of her house. The sky was mixed with grey and white with a hint of peeking blue in anticipation of yet another downpour. She had forgotten an umbrella in her rush to get out resulting in a lack of “proper” clothing. In a plain casual white dress and black thongs she found she was much freer to discover the contents of her streets.

Tiring of her tiptoeing facade she decided to hop over imaginary holes in the path instead. She knew it was dangerous to walk around the streets with a gang out but she knew how to handle herself. Avoid all open spaces and always keep a look out. She also discovered that the gang usually never fired twice due to either accuracy of aim or lack of interest in whatever was being shot. So she was relatively safe as such.

Suddenly, Karen heard raised voices arguing. She quickly ducked and crept towards the sound of the voices edging slightly closer to both the brown wall and the growing noise ahead. Passing under a window she noticed a square hole on the wall and realised that the voices were on the other end of the hole. Since curiosity was one of her major strengths and flaws in her exploratory personality she listened as hard as she could to the antics of the heated argument. As she crouched by the square of sound, she kept up a cautious look out and twitched nervously in case of a hit and run scenario. This was her greatest discovery yet.

Thursday, April 14, 2011


Sitting at her small round table in the middle of an empty room, Sally sat pondering the story she was yet to write. Her short blonde hair lay dead against her thin neck. The room lacked any inspiration but she found it liberating to be influenced by nothing. The rectangular loose papers in front of her lay on the circular table lifelessly. It was stained not with ink, but a drop of ginger ale. She started to describe everything she did in her head.
Gingerly, (get the pun?) I traced the outline of the stain.
That was just one of the many thoughts littering her mind. She licked her finger tasting the soap she had recently washed her hands with. She then proceeded to leaf through her blank papers for the irony and paused on a page. She then pretended to examine some of the invisible squiggles that emanated from the smooth white surface. She soon got bored of this and clumsily dropped everything she held in her hands leaving a mess of still blank papers.
She looked out the one lonely window the room had and noticed a tiny little eye peeking in at her. Hovering just outside was the smallest dragon with the most amazing baby pink coloured scales. But the wings! They were twice the size of its body and looked angel-like without the feathers.
Sally opened the window and let the gecko-like dragon step onto the window ledge onto its needle thin legs and pinpoint claws. The dragon’s body was the size of a highlighter, its head a pencil, and its tail the same length as its body and head put together. It jumped onto her curious hand and licked her. She wouldn’t have even known that it had licked her if not for the heat of its tongue.
This was to be her little dragon. When a dragon licks a person it means they’ve chosen that person for something. No-one knows what though.
Sally decided to give the dragon, not knowing its gender, a name.
“Hello Pinq spelt with a ‘q’ but pronounced as a k.”
After a slight pause in thought she frowned and said, “why me?”
Pinq, having just found its way to her round table, had just decided to show off its talent for making different shapes with its fire. Sally supposed that this was the way this dragon greeted people, if it ever did greet anyone.
Dragons couldn’t speak and were quite rare to find but once one found their person, life was certainly different. Each dragon had their own way of communicating with their chosen person. Some even used charades as their form of communication.
So far Sally couldn’t figure out how this dragon communicated. She looked hard at the dragon that was having fun blowing hot bursts of flame into different shapes. After a few minutes of hard staring she slowly began to recognise the shapes the dragon was breathing out. They were hot bursts of flaming letters.
H – E – L – L – O
She clapped her hands in delight and sat down at her table. She took a piece of paper from the table and was about to start cutting it out when Pinq jumped up, startling her, and started breathing fire at the paper. Sally let go immediately only to find blackened letters on the paper.
What’s your name?
It said. Her fingers edged to her pencil but then stopped herself.
“My name’s Sally.”
Pinq stared at her knowingly and puffed out an exclamation mark which Sally liked to interpret as “nice to meet you.” But was probably more along the lines of “Watch out!” She had accidentally edged her bottom too far forward in her chair and had just dropped to the floor. She looked up dazedly at HER pink dragon and smiled. She had a story to write!

A short story that I wrote... :)


Balancing on a Broken Brick Wall

Sitting among the daisies and weeds, overgrown due to the lack of attention, a young girl’s mind wonders. Her hand flickers here and there as if dancing with the daisies. The breeze is blowing gently this way and that, changing directions constantly.

A butterfly flits about tempting Angelica to follow it up into the sky to enjoy the freedom of flight. Angelica wants to; the whole world could tell that she wanted to. She even pretends to get ready for the possibility of flying. She starts limbering up her arms and puffing out her long, flowing dress like wings. She gives herself a running-start and jumps. In that instant the air pulls her upwards, the birds and insects chirp and cheer her on and the world seems to pause. When she pretends, she likes to think absurd things, like the possibility that time has made one second last for five seconds just so she could experience what it was like to feel the exhilaration of being weightless.

(A lot of seconds before this)

A few metres away, a little boy appears with his very new camera. He holds it in his hands poised and ready to capture a moment in a still image so that it lasts forever. He sees Angelica and clicks away; once, twice, three times.

As Angelica’s feet find the ground her happiness falters for a millisecond. She knew it had to end sometime. She spun, still imagining that she could lift off the earth like a helicopter. The world understood her; her parents didn’t. After falling to the ground dizzily, she glances up and sees a shaky figure of a boy. She makes out like she’s about to pounce on him, but then runs away in the direction of her house, still stumbling from the effects of her spin.

The boy tries to follow but realises she is much too fast. She runs like the gingerbread man; with joy at knowing no-one can catch her. He runs like a sloth; not at all. He watches her in awe as her run turns into a dance with leaps and twirls. Clicking his camera once he carefully makes his way through the field back to the wall where he can see everything.

Sitting at the dining table, Angelica reigns in her desire for freedom to fit into her household environment. She looks behind her and notices footprints of mud leading to her seat. Quickly she jumps to another seat without leaving a trace and plonks the household pet dog, Chuckles, onto her recently vacated seat. She then hides her feet beneath her chair in an effort to make her framing more credible.

She hears soft footfalls nearing her position and hurriedly wipes her hands on her grass-stained dress and pulls her fingers through the knotty mess that is her hair. She finds a twig buried within and disentangles it which she speedily throws out of the room just in time. Her mum walks in holding the mail and immediately finds herself staring at the mud. Her look is stern as she gazes upon the scene. She doesn’t see the funny side of this. Angelica remains seated at the table as if she has done nothing wrong still trying to frame Chuckles. “Angelica! What have you done!?” She glances at her mum but quickly regrets it. “Nothing mama.”

“Don’t you dare lie to me! Clean yourself up NOW!”

Angelica sullenly drops off her chair and mopes along to the bathroom. Before she leaves the room her mother runs off to get her a towel. As she approaches the bathroom door her mother hands over a dark coloured towel and watches her until the door closes with a dull thud. Her mother pauses in front of the door before leaving to clean up the mess.

In the neat room that was hers, Angelica spread out on the bed holding her toy bird against her clean chest. Out of the corner of her eye, she catches a glimmer of movement. She turns her head and notices the boy balancing on an old broken brick wall. She is fascinated by his ability to almost topple over and stares without realising she’s staring. The only thing breaking her stare was the need to blink. Her eyes widen as she catches sight of the shiny camera hanging around his neck, and she remembers her earlier image of him. He was vicariously trying to maintain his balance on one foot when three precise knocks startle her out of her trance, reminding her of the time. She sighs, looks in her mirror to neaten her hair and smooth out the creases in her clean dress. Walking properly, she makes her way to dine with her parents.

The next day the grey morning enters her room almost waking her. Not quite awake though, she falls asleep again only to reawaken to angry knocking. Each knock reminded her of what she was supposed to have done in the time it took for her to oversleep. She slowly got dressed and dreaded the day ahead, her only salvation being her spare time. Smoothing both her hair and dress she walked out of her room, still not prepared for the routine of her day.

As Angelica’s spare time approached, her body gradually became less and less contained. No more piano, learning maths, reading or study. Time for her to be in the world where she could be free. These are the moments she loves. Her feet, half skipping half running, transport her to her favourite spot far, far away from her house. Then she remembers the boy and lets her feet carry her to the broken brick wall. The wind rips back and forth more forcefully at the broken brick wall and she understands why the boy was almost falling over. The wall crumbles as her hands strenuously pull her heavy dress and herself on top of it. She stands ready for the more challenging surroundings and feels a different exhilaration; of almost toppling over and then not. The wind pulls against her hair and pushes against her dress; it being less supportive in this atmosphere. The wall continues to crumble underfoot as her feet adjust to maintain her balance. Even the weeds didn’t survive in this area.

She continues to balance precariously as she notices a figure in the distance growing bigger. The still shadow of its owner covers the weeds as the sun shines down. Her eyes follow the boy as he attempts a run but ends up almost tripping. His camera bounces against his body as he jumps with excitement upon noticing the girl on the wall.

“What are you doing?”

“Balancing on your wall. It is much more difficult to do than watch.”

He shrugs his shoulders in dismissal. His hands, ready on the camera, takes a picture.

“Why do you keep taking pictures of me?”

“You’re so in the moment, I have to.”

“In the moment?”

“Yeah.”

She thinks about this for a little bit then dismisses it in the same manner he dismisses his balancing efforts the other day. She jumps down off the wall (not like Humpty Dumpty) and runs, dances, flies to him. He clicks his camera.

She stops just in front of him and draws in big deep breaths. She closes her eyes and falls backwards into the soft field absorbing the energy of the world. He stares in confusion, then takes a few more photos.

“My mum said I should ask whether or not you mind me taking photos of you.”

“Why?”

“She says it’s polite.”

“Oh... well as long as I get to see them I am quite happy.”

“Thanks.”

He stares at her wonderingly. He wonders at her odd nature and how she manages to find greatness in such little things. He wonders why she is lying at his feet with her eyes closed and wonders what he should do. All he knows to do is take photos; so he does. Click.

“How does it steal my moment?”

“I don’t know.”

He shakes his head. He really doesn’t know he just loves to capture real life. His camera shows him how many photos he has left on the roll, and there aren’t too many. A bee buzzes around him and continues to work through its nectar collecting. His parents love his photos. His left hand rests on his camera as the other covers his eyes; the passing clouds’ reflection of the sun stings his eyes.

Angelica opens her eyes feeling the horrible sensation of creepy crawlies wiggling and walking all over her. Ants and grasshoppers that are confident enough, mind their own business on her body. She finds this feeling uncomfortable and slides her hand near the bugs to coerce them off her.

She thinks that this person her own age is more comforting than her parents, from whom she thought she was supposed to feel love. Her eyes wouldn’t stray from the stranger’s and she found herself understanding more about her family life through his eyes.

“What is it that parents want from you?” she said.

“Who knows? They’re a mystery to me.”

“They’re always disappointed in me.”

“They love you when you are you, I discovered.”

She closes her eyes once again and ponders this thought. Maybe trying to please her parents is not the way to go. Experimenting will only help this investigation. She opens her eyes again and looks seriously at the boy, nodding her inward agreement.

“I will try this discovery out and report back to you.”

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My cat and dog. Aren't they cute! Naww
Ok so I prefer cats to dogs. Dogs are way too needy. Cats are fluffy and their meows adorable! Well my cat is fluffy and soft and funny. I wonder if they can communicate with each other... That would be cool! Wouldn't it?
Yes these are the things I think about...
I love how my sock is in between them... ^^.
This is lovely really...ok I lost my train of thought and I have forgotten what I was talking about before the 3 dots. well anyway.
I am away wandering amongst the wavery daisies.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Teacups

Teacups!
Teacups are quite delicate and elegant. Don't you think? I was not supposed to take this photo but I did and for more paranoid reasons I won't mention why though you may figure it out. Or you might not...who knows?
I think these teacups are cute and colour co-ordinated which make me happy and makes this photo quite nice. Orange is not my favourite colour...but I will deal.
So teacups...
I want to use one for all drinks that I have but I don't think my mother would want her delicate teacups used for water or juice...
Anyway did I have a phrase? to end on? I have no idea. I will put one.
I am away wandering amongst the wavery daisies.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Something descriptive

The blueness that extends from infinity and above
is floating along with the whiteness of the fairy floss clouds. The day changing into night and back to day. The ocean stretching on forever. The darkness gets lighter further and further away.
The floating teensy weensy drops of water clumped together flows flat "wandering lonely as a cloud".